So the past 5 months I have not blogged or uploaded Youtube videos. I was just about to launch my rubber stamp line and start my own business, Mamfa Makes. However, sometimes things change. This is pretty much what has been happening the past 5 month. Changes.
With the wedding in October, I was mainly concentrating on that. If I am completely honest, mostly pinning on Pinterest, showing ideas to friends and family boring everyone I knew with talk of the wedding which we brought forward from June 2014 to October 2013 so that we could save some money on the cost and also make sure my Nan would be there.
Sadly, in August, Nan started to get poorly. She was not her normal self but soldiered on and I was still seeing her every day. My time on the business just was not a priority and the wedding and Nan took over. Nan was taken to hospital and we were told she needed to stay there, pretty much permanently. Mum and I discussed what the alternatives were and decided since Nan hates the hospital and was so upset, we would bring her home. Nan needed permanent care and so Dean and I gave up our flat and moved in the upstairs of Nan's house. We literally did this in a couple of weeks, whilst also clearing out some of Nan's rooms, doing tip runs, decorating the rooms to move in to and taking care of Nan in between. We were lucky Mum and Dad helped us out so much and we had a great friend, Sarah, who helped more than anyone to stay with Nan when I needed to pop out.
We were moved in by early September and for the next month were constantly preparing our DIY wedding. Literally we did and made everything. We designed our table centre pieces, the sign in table, decorations, made our own photobooth from scratch, made menus, favour boxes, literally everything was done in that last month, most of which I did on Nan's bed as she sit in her chair watching in amazement. It really was special to have her there seeing it all come together.
We decided to also do our own flowers. Crazy, huh? Yes it was. We went to New Covent Garden at 3am and picked the roses, accent flowers, fillers and snowberries I had so desperately desired. It was alot of fun, especially since my cousin came to help choose as she was making up the bouquets for me, my friend Sarah came as the person who best knew 'my style' to help look and Dean, bless him, pretty much was the driver and bloke walking about looking unimpressed at shopping at 3am! Anyway, we got home by 8am and as we walked through the lounge, Nan was grinning from ear to ear at all the flowers she could see. She thought it was all so marvellous and the fact we had picked our own best quality roses made her so happy. She said 'I deserve the best'. That's what we got too. If you are thinking of doing your own flowers, my advice is do it. Its not hard to find the flowers you want and you do not need to buy huge quantities, you can match up what you want and the people there are really friendly and helpful. We spent around £350 and had enough to make 6 bridesmaids bouquest, my bouquet, 15 vase arrnagements, 6 buttonholes, 4 corsages and still had lots left to decorate with.
I digressed, so my point is September was kind of a blur as was the week before the wedding. We had very little sleep but were give a night off every few days when the Marie Curie nurses came in overnight. They were all really wonderful. As the big day approached, friends came to Nan's house and we were all making bouquets the day before and decorating the handles with lace, vintage trinkets and ribbon. It was lots of fun, plus Nan got to meet everyone.
Nan was not able to come to our wedding in the end, as her health rapidly decreased which broke my heart, but we promised to bring her back my bouquet. Which we did. On the Sunday aftr the wedding we popped home for a few hours before going on honeymoon and Nan loved the bouquet and was so happy to see us and kept saying "you are now Mrs Polley" and just kept smiling and giggling. It is one of my favourite memories of her. She was so happy to hear about our day.
We left for our honeymoon on the Sunday evening and sadly, on Thursday, Mum called to say Nan had passed away, so we flew home early. Since then, my world has been upside down and I still can't really talk, out loud about Nan or what has happened as its too raw and being so close to Nan, it has been a lot harder than I ever thought to get on without her here.
Now, it is November and its been a month since Nan has been gone and still I am finding it hard to be motivated. So I decided I would set myself some goals.
I will launch my stamp range, get crafting again and start the MamfaMakes Blog show casing the products, tutorials, tips and other craft creations. I really hope that by 2014, it will be a new year, a new start and that I will finally have Mamfa Makes stamps in production. I told you, lots of changes.